Favorite Photo Friday- "You Make Me Smile"

 

 I love this little boy. I love him from my toenails to the tips of my fingers. There are times when my heart will burst when I think about him. He is sunshine, silliness, honor, hard work, and freckles. He is my heart. I would die without hesitation to add one moment to his life. I never knew I could love a little boy this much before he came. Being his Auntie is my favorite role. I fell in love with him as I watched him take his first breath. I have loved him through the learning to walk, to talk, to sing off key, to wearing casts, to the long, skinny-legged boy he is today. He is growing up. Watching him these days I catch glimpses of the young man he will be. I am proud of that young man. He is full of passion, honesty, integrity, and tenderness. He lives in a corner of my soul that was empty before he came. I didn't know it was even there, waiting. I know that when my babies finally come..they will fill up my heart and open rooms I didn't even know were there. This song is for you my bean....

You´re better then the best
I´m lucky just to linger in your light
Cooler than the flip side of my pillow that´s right
Completely unaware
Nothing can compare to where you send me

You make me smile like the sun
Fall outta bed
Sing like a bird
Dizzy in my head
Spin like a record
Crazy on a Sunday night

You make me dance like a fool
Forget how to breathe
Shine like gold
Buzz like a bee
Just the thought of you can drive me wild
Oh, you make me smile

Even when you´re gone
Somehow you come along
Just like a flower poking through the sidewalk crack and just like that
You steal away the rain and just like that

You make me dance like a fool
Forget how to breathe
Shine like gold
buzz like a bee
Just the thought of you can drive me wild
Oh, you make me smile

Don´t know how I lived without you
'Cuz every time that I get around you
I see the best of me inside your eyes
You make me smile
You make me dance like a fool
Forget how to breathe
Shine like gold
Buzz like a bee
Just the thought of you can drive me wild

Why You Gotta be So Mean?

Why You Gotta Be So Mean?

This past week has been a tough one for me. Having nothing to do with adoption. Working in a new position has its challenges and encountering people who would rather things not change for the better makes it really hard. I just turned on my radio and heard this song by Taylor Swift…It was too perfect and I had to post it. This was my inner dialogue all this past week.

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You, with your words like knives
And swords and weapons that you use against me
You have knocked me off my feet again
Got me feeling like I'm nothing
You, with your voice like nails on a chalkboard
Calling me out when I'm wounded
You picking on the weaker man

Well you can take me down with just one single blow
But you don't know, what you don't know...


You, with your switching sides
And your wildfire lies and your humiliation
You have pointed out my flaws again
As if I don't already see them
I walk with my head down
Trying to block you out 'cause I'll never impress you
I just wanna feel okay again

I bet you got pushed around
Somebody made you cold
But the cycle ends right now
Cause you can't lead me down that road
And you don't know, what you don't know...

However, it ENDS right here. No more anger no more bitterness. I am a good person who is doing my best. I am humbled and honored to have the position I do. I have the privilege of caring for others in their darkest hour and now, helping to lead and mentor others who are doing the same. I love where I work. I am happy there. I have a new mentor and am looking forward to the future.

I WILL not let this persons poison fill me. I will not let the comments and actions that have been done get to me. I will pray….more. I will surround myself with the friends and colleagues that have been there for me. I hope to be able to continue to be there for them as well. Thank You God for these stumbling blocks, I will be stronger and closer to you when we are over them.