Where I am...

I started this adoption journey almost four years ago. There have been many unexpected twists and turns but now I am on the road to adopting a baby girl from Russia. Although not her real name we will call her...Hope. For it symbolizes what she is. A miracle, sometimes a dream, always longed and prayed for. With all current paperwork completed all that stands in my way is finances. I invite you to follow my journey as my faith is tested, my belief grows deeper, and soon my Hope will be placed in my arms after so long living in my heart...May you be inspired, encouraged, humored, provoked to think, and always drawn closer to God.

Monday, July 4, 2011

Welcome

Thanks so much for visiting me! Although this is my first post, I have been officially on this adoption journey in one way or another since September 2008. My goal for this blog is to share, document, remember, contemplate, and provide encouragement, humor, and understanding for those who come here. Whether or not you are a parent, planning on becoming a parent, are a grandparent or anyone else, it matters not. Human experience is relatable to all. No matter what brings you here, I welcome you. Thanks for taking time out of your day to be a part of my journey.
 It feels surreal to be typing this entry. For the past three or so years I have been walking down the crooked road of adoption.  With all its ups and downs, blind corners and U-turns, there has been one thing that has provided me with endless encouragement, laughter, inspiration, and faith. That one thing has been daily visiting the blogs of countless families and reading about their experiences.  Through the years I feel as though I know them personally! Seeing their pictures, watching their babies grow, scrolling back and experiencing their adoption journey does so many things for me. It reminds me that adoption works. That it does indeed happen to some people :-) People actually can become parents this way! No matter how dark the day may appear, someone else has actually lived through these endless questions, piles of pointless paperwork, and seemingly impossible fundraising.
What is it about humans that we think whatever we are feeling, worrying about, wishing for, that we are the ONLY ones that have ever felt that way? As if we are the only ones who have ever had that happen to us…we isolate ourselves, to worry, to wish, to resent.  When we finally open our eyes, look out beyond ourselves, listen, we realize that the human experience is terribly similar. We all yearn for love, to be heard, to be accepted. We all fear abandonment, wish for peace, and sigh at the soft touch of a child. Reading the fears, the joys, the tears, and happiness of others adoptive families has been the wakeup call for me to know that I am not alone. At first, it was a dream, then it was a plan, at times a hopeless cause, at others just a breath away. I thank these families for allowing me into their journey. Though they will never know it, they have been a source of faith and renewal for me.  I hope and pray that my words can in some way reach even one person to encourage them to believe in this miracle.