Why You Gotta be So Mean?

Why You Gotta Be So Mean?

This past week has been a tough one for me. Having nothing to do with adoption. Working in a new position has its challenges and encountering people who would rather things not change for the better makes it really hard. I just turned on my radio and heard this song by Taylor Swift…It was too perfect and I had to post it. This was my inner dialogue all this past week.

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You, with your words like knives
And swords and weapons that you use against me
You have knocked me off my feet again
Got me feeling like I'm nothing
You, with your voice like nails on a chalkboard
Calling me out when I'm wounded
You picking on the weaker man

Well you can take me down with just one single blow
But you don't know, what you don't know...


You, with your switching sides
And your wildfire lies and your humiliation
You have pointed out my flaws again
As if I don't already see them
I walk with my head down
Trying to block you out 'cause I'll never impress you
I just wanna feel okay again

I bet you got pushed around
Somebody made you cold
But the cycle ends right now
Cause you can't lead me down that road
And you don't know, what you don't know...

However, it ENDS right here. No more anger no more bitterness. I am a good person who is doing my best. I am humbled and honored to have the position I do. I have the privilege of caring for others in their darkest hour and now, helping to lead and mentor others who are doing the same. I love where I work. I am happy there. I have a new mentor and am looking forward to the future.

I WILL not let this persons poison fill me. I will not let the comments and actions that have been done get to me. I will pray….more. I will surround myself with the friends and colleagues that have been there for me. I hope to be able to continue to be there for them as well. Thank You God for these stumbling blocks, I will be stronger and closer to you when we are over them.